The gifts of twenty-seventeen brought home newness never tasted.
A journey from fearless girl to a fearful one.
I have never been so afraid of everything in my entire life.
Scared to think, to talk, to travel, to hug, to create, to love, to live. Scared of intimacy, of honesty, of relationships. Scared to return home. Scared of me. Anything, just name it.
A shock in the path of survival.
But I stayed open. I welcomed it all, one step at a time.
Greater awareness with openness in the space of fragility out of the fog of denial got me closer to the rawness of me.
I am not sure who I am.
I have been many things.
I guess, after a while I have landed here.
I (just) am.
Love is my language.
Once, I learned to hate.
But now, I am learning to love again.
Everything, everyone and nothing in its totality.
Life has it’s ways.
I have tasted the dirt.
I have flown in the space.
On and off, again and again, I still do.
Honestly, I have and have not liked life’s ways.
But here’s a question – would I change anything? Fuck no.
I am who I think am, thanks to all.
I am grateful to be alive.
Feeling is healing.
Breath is my ecstasy.
Honesty is my compass.
Transparency is my vulnerability.
The Art of Communication is my expression.
And loving love is my ultimate surrender experiment.
I am (that) love.
There’s no battle between good or bad.
There’s no distinction in light or dark.
Any darkness is the light just unaware of itself.
In the Angel Academy of Love Warriors I am, we all are masters in training.
I DON’T NEED TO PLAY IN THE DARK TO REMEMBER I AM THE LIGHT.
There are ONLY unloved parts of me longing to be loved by me, so that one day I can be a fully integrated soul in human form.
That’s my homework.
It has been and it will be.
ANYTIME, I CHOOSE LOVE OVER FEAR.
My TRUTH is this.
Loving me is loving you.
Loving you is loving everyone.
Loving everyone is loving everything and nothing.
Currently, I am making love with writing.
Stories, they don’t define us, they empower us.
I have been cute, embarrassingly cute, in my waking up.
Writing is a bit lonely and a scary path but awakening the truth within is liberating.
I know nothing what’s coming but life does. Love does. I bow to all.
Here’s what I know in the not knowing – I ALREADY AM AND HAVE BECOME WHAT I AM BECOMING.
I am the Hero of my own life’s story.
LET’S STAY OPEN.
LET’S CHOOSE LOVE.
I AM THE LIGHT, THE LIGHT I AM.
ALSO, THANK YOU FOR THE BEAUTY OF YOU. You’re a part of me becoming me.